Sincerity

 I'm constantly struggling
 to keep control of my thoughts
 but beyond my mind
 there's nothing,
 nothing but
 an obscure shadow
 of misery and hate.
 An uneasy silence descends
 and I'm all alone,
 no pretending.
 I can barely
 feel tears welling in my eyes,
 so I'd rather tore them away
 than reminiscing.
 Once,
 when there was void,
 everything seemed so
 familiar.
 Now,
 I close my eyes
 and choose to see
 another painted black sky,
 dead and bleak.
 Long gone from now...