Unbearable

Remember that time when we were...in love?
...in the most innocent sense of the phrase...
meh, seems like we didn't make it..
Is it gone? Forever?

...or that morning
when I crawled into your bed
and after a while
when I was laying next to you,
sinking my inner thoughts
and counting your breaths
...I fell asleep...
with my head resting in your hand.

Do you remember the next evening
when I was stroking your head,
touching your hair, your cheeks,
tracing your fragile lips with my finger tips
and you fell asleep?
Can you believe it? You fell asleep...

and I just couldn't leave jet
and leave you there
even though I thought it would be easy.
So, I wrapped my hands around you,
unable to think..
as I was weak, tired and sleepless.
But, for that moment I was truly yours..
unconditionally..
I even thought I would break into tears
flood of tears.

That warmth, love, bliss or whatever it was
made me feel alive all over again.

Do you remember? Can you?
It was our love, our war,
your proof, my loss.